last drop.

i keep tyring and keep trying and keep trying and trying, i put energy into it, i use my skills,look at my damned diary cards, they've got skills checked off all over the place, i do therapy i do meds i do hospitals i do groups i do programs i do school and nothing seems to change any of my experience. i dont know what to do, i can't think of what to do i dont understand what i need to do to change this. and no one really seems very convinced they know either.